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Daniel Battiston danielbattiston — Forster is on familiar ground here, telling the intermingled stories of her grandmother, her mother, and herself. Her grandmother, Margaret Ann, was the illegitimate daughter of parents who were dead before she was two. The next 20 years of her life are shrouded in mystery, until she reappears as a domestic servant in Carlisle -- and Forster discovers during her research that her grandmother too had an illegitimate daughter of whom the rest of her family knew nothing. Margaret Ann has a hard life until she meets and marries a prosperous butcher -- who dies young, leaving her struggling to bring up three daughters alone. Forster's mother Lilian too has a circumscribed life, marrying a man she doesn't apparently love in order to seek fulfilment as a wife and mother. She succeeds, up to a point, but spends a life of frustration, always feeling she "hasn't made anything of herself". Her husband works at a hard, low-paid job as a fitter in a factory, and they struggle to make ends meet -- yet when Arthur is offered better-paid jobs elsewhere, he always turns them down. Why would anyone want to live anywhere other than Carlisle? You get a sense of the narrowness of her parents' lives when Forster writes: The most daring journey ever made was by my father when he went as a young man to London for the day. He went to King's Cross station, walked round it, thought nothing of it, and came back, to boast forever he had been to London. From an early age Margaret is determined not to follow in her mother's footsteps -- she has no desire to be trapped as a dutiful, frustrated wife and mother, so she vows never to get married. Forster's aim in this book is clearly to show the onward march of progress, how just as life was better for her mother than it was for her grandmother, so her life is better still. However, she is clearly far from typical. From her poor working-class background, she won a scholarship to grammar school, and was then accepted by both Oxford and Cambridge (she chose Oxford). Virtually as soon as she graduated, she forgot her vow and promptly got married -- but the fact that her husband was a successful journalist meant that she could comfortably combine work with motherhood, earning a good living by writing novels. There can't be many girls in her situation who succeeded like that, so her faith in progress, while justified, is perhaps a bit overdone. I did enjoy the book -- Forster's research is skilfully blended with personal reminiscence, and she paints a touching picture of her grandmother's and mother's lives, with their shameful secrets that no amount of research can now uncover. But I do get the impression Forster returns again and again to the same subject, and I'm not particularly tempted to read her other volumes of memoirs.